A need for a hobby

My beautiful daughter has been trying to teach me crochet, and has given me a copy of a book she has two of, one from me, and one from her mother in law, this means if I am stuck I can tell her which page I am stuck on.  I have also ordered a new supply of jewellery making things, I lost mine in the move last year, and still haven't found the box they are stashed in.  No doubt they will appear now!  A lot of the bits I have ordered are to make bits to sell at my friend, and fellow fighter's, Mad Hatter's Tea Party in June, she is charging £5 for a table, keep your profits, my daughter and I have decided that we are going to give our profits back to the charity, as it is so close to us.  It is of course Cancer Research.  The more money we can raise the more chance I have of control, or hopefully, and even better, that all elusive remission.  I am not feeling so good at the moment, I have lots of new pains, had a scan last week and I really am not looking forward to the results tomorrow.  I have to discuss with her how we can control the pain if we continue with this treatment, or if not where do we go from here.  Difficult discussion.  Hopefully hubby will be able to come with me.  We will see, usually his work is very good, and to be honest I am not really feeling up to the drive.  I am very weepy at the moment too.  Not good, I pointed out to my lovely 19 year old son the other day that he is very lucky to have 3 mummies (obviously me, his girlfriend's mum, and his best friend since he was 4 years old' mum), with tears in his eyes he reminded me that he had seen two of us in tears over the weekend, not a good time for us or him.  In the words of D-Ream "Things can only get better" well we can always hope xx